nothing makes me feel more fucked up than trying to be around people and not even being able to pretend not to be a grumpy piece of shit for like 10 minutes

there's literally no reason for me to act and feel this way but I don't know how to stop so whatever I guess

probably doesn't help that my partner is the most exhaustingly cheerful person on the planet who becomes completely unrelatable when I'm like this

@cmdrspacebabe I hope you don't mind me asking a personal question, but you suffer from depression and/or anxiety? (I do)

@panickyintheuk haha, yes. both. and ADHD. :p I'm on antidepressants now - wellbutrin - and it's helped my energy levels a lot, but not so much my generally low mood/discomfort with socializing. I'm going to ask about actual therapy next time I see my doctor.

@cmdrspacebabe How do you find wellbutrin? I don't think it's available here. I was on fluoxetine (Prozac) for a long time, then switched to sertraline which gave me horrible side effects, then I came off meds altogether over a year ago and am seeing how it goes (hard, but maybe necessary for me right now). Anyway in that case I figure you don't need a reason?? Or like, that's reason enough! I'm sure your partner understands. I'm sure you know this already but I just thought I'd say

@cmdrspacebabe Sorry, you kind of already answered my Q about wellbutrin. My bad, I must have been skimming without realising :rolling_eyes: I kiiinda think I might have ADD but everyone I talk to about it thinks that's ridiculous because I don't have the "classic symptoms" or "personality" or whatever, so, idk