I guess I'm at least getting better at breaking stalemates in brain-conflicts.

Maybe I'm not ever going to be the kind of person who can bounce back from anything or push through painful and exhausting shit and keep going

I'd like to think that's ok not to be, but I'm worried that that fortitude is required from me, and failing to fulfil it will have consequences.

Maybe I've heard of too many worst case scenarios from other people, and believed too much of the parents' BS about what's expected of me?

Or, maybe not "what's expected of me" but "what I'm capable of if I 'try harder'"

@kitsch as a brainweird the world will always expect you to push yourself to the point of injury to fit its expectations. so yeah sometimes there are consequences :-/ it's unavoidable in a hostile society, regardless of where you set the limit on your exertion. but you can learn to value yourself anyway, triage the important external stuff, and find other sources of social support.