I feel guilty everything is going so smoothly for me when I wasn't one of those trans women who knew since they were kids. It's silly. I hate that I'm still playing the trans enough game. But if you asked me if I thought I was trans a year ago, I'd pause, and say, "maybe a tiny bit genderqueer deep down?"

@ikea_femme i still have (silly) reservations / imposter syndrome over a decade in, welcome to the party

granted, i'm not exactly a role model in terms of dealing with my mental/emotional shit in a time-efficient manner; i ignore it for years at a time. i should probably return to therapy to make more progress

@ikea_femme i can't think of another path i could have taken that would have been better or even feasible, though. so that shuts up the little voices when they pop up.

@alyx yeah, I certainly had less feelings and more weak ideation as a guy. And I don't so much feel beholden to skirts and makeup as just thinking, "why the hell would I do that?" when I think of any step towards detransition.

@ikea_femme @alyx +1 to this whole thread tbh

@viv @alyx I mean, it really comes down to, any change wouldn't really suit me better. Like, yeah, it'd be convenient to not shave for a week, but a beard wouldn't look right to me or my friends. We all know me as a woman. Nor would I want to quit my hormones. I like how they feel, and I think I look attractive in a way I'm comfortable with on them. Those are the two biggest changes I could make with minimal effort.