**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 18 août 2017, 03:39

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 18 août 2017, 03:39

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

18 août 2017, 03:39

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

guilt, passing, meeting other trans women Afficher plus

So I made a couple new friends today, an autistic cisgender woman and a trans woman, and I was kind of jazzed because I haven't really met any other trans women other than one gal who I didn't really get along with.

But, God, I realize there's stuff I feel comfortable talking to cis people about and stuff I'm comfortable talking to trans people about, and the talk to trans people set is not a superset of talk to cis people.

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 18 août 2017, 03:43

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 18 août 2017, 03:43

18 août 2017, 03:43

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

guilt, passing, meeting other trans women Afficher plus

And I hate that a big "not comfortable taking to other trans people" thing is that I deep down, sincerely wish I passed and feel anything other than passing is a coping mechanism. I am not one bit ashamed of being trans, but I want to be seen as trans on my terms because I'm not comfortable with a fuck society attitude. I'm a social creature and I hate being clocked. If it were possible to be stealth, I might even consider that.

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 2017-08-18T03:48:13Z

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

guilt, passing, meeting other trans women Afficher plus

It makes me feel guilty to even admit it here, where people can see the content warning. Like I'm letting down my siblings by blending in, not even for safety but just to feel comfortable.

When I sort of passed at work, it was the first time in my 28 years I felt sort of human.

And I hate it. Nothing bad happens when I don't pass. There's sirs and microagressions and condescending cis lady friends, but that's nothing. Ugh.

18 août 2017, 03:48 · Twidere for Android · 0 · 0

**mx. clarity s. sparks** @mxsparks@vulpine.club · 18 août 2017, 06:23

**mx. clarity s. sparks** @mxsparks@vulpine.club · 18 août 2017, 06:23

18 août 2017, 06:23

mx. clarity s. sparks @mxsparks@vulpine.club

guilt, passing, meeting other trans women Afficher plus

@ikea_femme hey <3

wanting to blend in is not the wrong way to be trans

wanting the thing that makes you feel human isn't letting anyone down

(least of all your sibs who understand about wanting so badly to just be at home in our own bodies)

and i know I've got some nerve saying this, given that i'm confused as hell and so new I'm walking around with bits of eggshell stuck to my feathers

but:

**mx. clarity s. sparks** @mxsparks@vulpine.club · 18 août 2017, 06:28

**mx. clarity s. sparks** @mxsparks@vulpine.club · 18 août 2017, 06:28

18 août 2017, 06:28

mx. clarity s. sparks @mxsparks@vulpine.club

guilt, passing, meeting other trans women Afficher plus

@ikea_femme

your desires are valid. your conflicting and awful feelings about your desires are valid. you, the person with those desires, are valid.

and you're valued, at least by one random stranger in the internet.