It makes me feel guilty to even admit it here, where people can see the content warning. Like I'm letting down my siblings by blending in, not even for safety but just to feel comfortable.

When I sort of passed at work, it was the first time in my 28 years I felt sort of human.

And I hate it. Nothing bad happens when I don't pass. There's sirs and microagressions and condescending cis lady friends, but that's nothing. Ugh.

@ikea_femme hey <3

wanting to blend in is not the wrong way to be trans

wanting the thing that makes you feel human isn't letting anyone down

(least of all your sibs who understand about wanting so badly to just be at home in our own bodies)

and i know I've got some nerve saying this, given that i'm confused as hell and so new I'm walking around with bits of eggshell stuck to my feathers

but:

@ikea_femme

your desires are valid. your conflicting and awful feelings about your desires are valid. you, the person with those desires, are valid.

and you're valued, at least by one random stranger in the internet.