I have been invited to do a fun thing tonight but I am too anxious and insecure to go unless someone going or the host specifically says they want me to :(
it was a group invitation, obviously the host didn't want *me* there /jerkbrain
@aprrrl I have done this exact thing. *hugs*
and of course the reply leaves it uncertain, so I will go hide at home tonight
@aprrrl *sends comforting thoughts in your direction*
@aprrrl yeah that part of my brain is a really crappy one, when I started being, glitter, makeup and cute, me they quieted down a bit, but they are still here.
I have various coping methods but I'm not sure they are heathy, so I don't wanna recommend them here.
Saying fuck it, and breathing helps me.
And there is always next time 🌈
@Josephine Thanks <3
It helps that others know the feeling
now I am saying I have a soft conflict and may not make it, in the hopes that they will say something that makes me feel like they want me there
why am I a mess