ok ok ok
what if I bridged Mettaton to Thoth through Snowdrake
huh? huh?
Snowdrake's a birb
@thatdelphox I know it's a weird thing to want to do but it's hard for me to find pathways to connect to massive old gods with ancient traditions I barely understand
@kara @thatdelphox this is why I don't know if old gods can apply anymore
The thing is we're afraid to consciously make new ones to begin with
@ambyrb @thatdelphox @kara maybe we don't make gods, but gods use us to make themselves
@oneirofaerie @ambyrb @thatdelphox oh I am _certain_ of that
JHWH must have been so PROUD when Jesus had his vision
LOOK SEE I CAN REALLY INSPIRE SOMEBODY
@kara @oneirofaerie @thatdelphox it's all fuzzy to me tbh
Like it's 4 am and I have zero clue whether I'm in a right mind to learn anything
Because I feel like I'm learning nothing ever
@ambyrb @thatdelphox @kara you've learnt that some things don't work for you and that's not nothing. But aye right now right now might not be the best time to think about this. Come back to it later.
@oneirofaerie @kara @thatdelphox I'm just here
Feeling
Almost like there's nothint else to do
@oneirofaerie more like a mild dissociation
Or maybe they're the same
I'm not very caring about whether it is or not atm
I have neither agency nor foundation within spirituality and that's what I mean by learning nothing
Maybe I don't need foundation? But that's highly unlikely
And without agency I may as well be a cog
@ambyrb I'm gonna call this synchronicity. But I'm reading a book about zen right now and I think it's being kind of helpful in this respect. I hate to think that I'm talking out of my ass, but I've felt the same way at times. But there's this idea that agency is something you have even when you don't think you do, cause everything that's voluntary is also spontaneous and trying to force a sense of agency is kind of like forcing the temperature in a room to stay the same by turning the furnace off and on repeatedly and immediately.
@ambyrb sorry, I think I got carried away
@oneirofaerie syncronicity?
@ambyrb it's a term coined by Carl Jung that refers to meaningful coincidences.
@ambyrb how very zen