felt somewhat like an alien last night, surrounded by a badminton gym full of mostly smaller cisnormative people

my recent initiative has been to reshape my body through fitness

the results have been an exciting improvement in physical self-image, even as it forces me to accept the reality that in a fit state i'll end up with more androgynous traits than i might feel ideal (mostly in body proportions)

as interesting and fruitful as this journey's been so far i still fell right into the dysphoria hole last night. the work must go on...