I feel guilty everything is going so smoothly for me when I wasn't one of those trans women who knew since they were kids. It's silly. I hate that I'm still playing the trans enough game. But if you asked me if I thought I was trans a year ago, I'd pause, and say, "maybe a tiny bit genderqueer deep down?"
@ikea_femme i still have (silly) reservations / imposter syndrome over a decade in, welcome to the party
granted, i'm not exactly a role model in terms of dealing with my mental/emotional shit in a time-efficient manner; i ignore it for years at a time. i should probably return to therapy to make more progress
@ikea_femme i can't think of another path i could have taken that would have been better or even feasible, though. so that shuts up the little voices when they pop up.
@alyx yeah, I certainly had less feelings and more weak ideation as a guy. And I don't so much feel beholden to skirts and makeup as just thinking, "why the hell would I do that?" when I think of any step towards detransition.
@ikea_femme i wear neither skirts nor makeup but if i detranisitioned cool haircut options would shrink dramatically. so, that's a solid no.
anyway, you seem to have a good head on your shoulders. the little doubts and such are common so you just ride 'em out and try to be kind to yerself