I feel guilty everything is going so smoothly for me when I wasn't one of those trans women who knew since they were kids. It's silly. I hate that I'm still playing the trans enough game. But if you asked me if I thought I was trans a year ago, I'd pause, and say, "maybe a tiny bit genderqueer deep down?"

@ikea_femme i still have (silly) reservations / imposter syndrome over a decade in, welcome to the party

granted, i'm not exactly a role model in terms of dealing with my mental/emotional shit in a time-efficient manner; i ignore it for years at a time. i should probably return to therapy to make more progress