I just don't want to live any more. I've been spending a lot of time sleeping because dreams are a better reality than reality, where I don't have any income because I'm both "employed" but not getting income because of reasons and that I don't know what to do because if I quit I can't get unemployment. And if I do go on unemployment I have to look for a job, and not being able to job is why I am in this mess to begin with.