**(moved!) Staccato Semibreve** @A_Staccato_Semibreve · 08 jan. 2018, 01:08

**(moved!) Staccato Semibreve** @A_Staccato_Semibreve · 08 jan. 2018, 01:08

(moved!) Staccato Semibreve @A_Staccato_Semibreve

08 jan. 2018, 01:08

(moved!) Staccato Semibreve @A_Staccato_Semibreve

Negative, trans feelings Afficher plus

I'm just randomly feeling sad about miscellaneous stuff for no apparent reason right now. And, being the helpful thing that it is, my brain has decided to start throwing doubts at me about my decision not to transition. :(

**(moved!) Staccato Semibreve** @A_Staccato_Semibreve · 2018-01-08T01:19:59Z

(moved!) Staccato Semibreve @A_Staccato_Semibreve

Negative, trans feelings, transphobia, venting a little Afficher plus

I definitely won't be able to, as I really wouldn't be able to cope with even the threat of transphobia, let alone actually facing it directly, but apparently that's not enough to convince myself...

Besides, maybe that's just an excuse I'm making and I just don't want to have to come out to people etc. or something subconsciously and I simply haven't figured that out yet.

08 jan. 2018, 01:19 · 0 · 0

**(moved!) Staccato Semibreve** @A_Staccato_Semibreve · 08 jan. 2018, 01:24

**(moved!) Staccato Semibreve** @A_Staccato_Semibreve · 08 jan. 2018, 01:24

08 jan. 2018, 01:24

(moved!) Staccato Semibreve @A_Staccato_Semibreve

Negative, trans feelings, misgendering, venting a lot Afficher plus

It certainly doesn't help that my friends in the physical plane (or however I should refer to them) don't know I'm trans and so often misgender me without realising.

Maybe I should come out to them? They'd probably either hate me for it or be really supportive. I'm not sure I want either of those things. The first would just be really awful, and the second would make it even more difficult for me not to transition. Plus, other people might find out somehow.

**(moved!) Staccato Semibreve** @A_Staccato_Semibreve · 08 jan. 2018, 01:30

**(moved!) Staccato Semibreve** @A_Staccato_Semibreve · 08 jan. 2018, 01:30

08 jan. 2018, 01:30

(moved!) Staccato Semibreve @A_Staccato_Semibreve

Negative, trans feelings, misgendering, hopefully the end of the venting Afficher plus

I'm not sure which is worse, really.

Not coming out and facing the dysphoria and lots of people I care about not really knowing me properly and misgendering me constantly without malice, and not knowing how anyone would respond to my potential transition, and always having the possibility of transition there taunting me?

Or transitioning, and constantly either being under threat or being worried about the possibility of being under threat, and possibly losing friends for it?

I think I'll just go with the safe option of doing nothing and hope I'm not making a mistake.