Yeah, it's happening really bad right now.

We feel really distant when we shouldn't?

We feel like nothing really exists and everything is kind of closing in and it's really not a great feeling right now?

Also we're ending things in question marks way more often than we should but that's probably just a current front's quirk?

Not enjoying this feeling at all to be perfectly honest.

@spiderrobotpig try to describe what you're feeling as best you can. that helps me sometimes

@ashkitten Like someone unconnected to us is controlling our body, but we're still aware it's happening. Also like all of the walls are slowly closing in and there's a pressure around our head, kind of like a box.

Also time feels weird?

Time definitely feels weird.

@spiderrobotpig oh gosh i think i've felt that before, back when i was part of a system the first time a really long time ago

@ashkitten Yeah, we haven't felt like this in a really long time so it's definitely kind of messing us up?

Also we've been fragmenting and defragmenting for around 6 months, and we don't really know how to cope with that now that this is happening

@spiderrobotpig i don't really have experience with fragmentation (that i know of, at least... not that i was ever a "normal" system) but that sounds really stressful

@ashkitten Like...we break apart occasionally, then reform into different but similar personalities.

It's kind of a lot, but we think the main issue is not only do we not know who we are we don't know how many of us of there or anything and it's kind of a lot

@spiderrobotpig oh i totally understand that, or at least i think i do... eventually something's gonna force me into breaking into a system again and that'll be not great...

@ashkitten Yeah that would probably not be preferable.

Also its like that but all of the headmates are game and also there are a bunch of smaller fragments of personality that randomly coalesce into a new full headmate it's kinda neat if it wasn't terrifying.

@spiderrobotpig lots of brain stuff would be neat if it wasn't absolutely horrible to deal with... i definitely would never want you to have to deal with that stuff if it was within my power

@ashkitten Thank you. We don't mind the headmates so much. It's nice to have company. But the confusion is pretty bad until it is figured out to be honest.

@spiderrobotpig headmates are fantastic! i'd love to have them all the time if they weren't brought about by trauma and confusion

@ashkitten Tulpa are good for that.

Though we think tulpa have visible bodies? We don't remember atm.

Also yes, that does sound pretty great

@spiderrobotpig basically how i work is i'm generally a singlet until some type of trauma or major chaos happens and then i split into many fragments which slowly reform a singlet as i heal, but i never turn out the same afterward

@ashkitten Yeah that's similar to what happened to us we think

@spiderrobotpig it's an adventure, for sure :)

@ashkitten Yes, yes it is.

Thank you for talking with us. It helped a lot.