playing "Ori", and then going back to one of my "Night in the Woods" playthrough videos looking for a particular moment, have gotten me to crying a lot this evening

is it cathartic crying? I dunno...I feel somewhat relieved, but also like...I'm crying because it still hurts

I'm still feeling trapped in my job, and feeling like if I were more of an adult, I'd figure out how to deal with it better

like, this is still on me, it's my attitude that's in the way