this keeps happening to me with work, I find myself just...AFRAID all the time, doing it
I can't settle into things, I start to feel like grit in the wheels rather than part of the machinery, and once engagement is lost, I can't just get it back any more
is this..._normal_? like, other people manage this
why do I end up having so much more trouble
I'm just...I'm really sick of my brain screwing shit up for me, you know
society and I just don't get on well