sev @sev@witches.town

I've moved to @sev at a.weirder.earth. Go find me there.

You are real. You are valid. You are valuable. The world is better because you are in it.

I believe in you. I'm proud of you.

Yes, you.

wait you're too close lemme just...
https://witches.town/media/zfmLdOt4cS03EgBTvjE

why yes I will be grudgingly getting progressives again when I order my next pair of eyeglasses.

Dammit.

g'bye peripheral vision it was nice to have you back for a year

*pout*

Yesterday I was forlorn, today desolate. I don't think this goes away as the season wears on; I just stop noticing it.

This will be my second winter since I stopped my antidepressants.

Tomorrow the light box and I are going to have a Long Conversation.

the light is dying
again
like it does every year.

but deep down, I never entirely trust that it will ever come back. Despite its yearly habit.

Every sunrise a revelation, and springtime a rescue.

too tired to control the Monster That Lives On Top Of My Head anymore

https://witches.town/media/sG0eMh49EORR4nAQiY8

(autocorrect says the Monster's name is Annie and would like to know if you want one?)

I think I might look as tired as I feel today. https://witches.town/media/L1hiXaYOxbr8BgbzRwM

I am so lucky.

*feeling smug*

lunchtime hug-break: highly recommended, would snuggle again

tomorrow's calendar has therapy, comic book store, and circus, and while these are all important to me none of them involve cuddles and I'm rather disappointed in myself for that.

I want more of the kind of intimate one-on-one connection that I associate with summer vacation afternoons. No responsibilities, no schedule, just endless hours of sunshine and whispers and smiles and love.

it's that time of year where my boots are getting taller but my skirts aren't getting much longer yet.

aka "the silver lining that makes this autumn thing at all acceptable" https://witches.town/media/gLohsmi62taIKsXKRCA

this has been a good week for me being seen & understood & appreciated. *happy glow*

but how am I supposed to get up when there are *two* kitties draped over me?

they never do this. Okay, this is the second time this year. Almost never.

and I'm cheerful that this is distracting me from the likelihood that I also need a new phone (sigh)

I have a new camera!

I have emptied my old camera bag and found: 15 rolls of unshot film, assorted batteries, a teaspoon of miscellaneous dirt, a ticket stub from burning man 2001, 2 tripod quick-release mounts, two filthy lenses (and one film camera).

Tonight I'm suddenly feeling fiercely possessive of my friends and lovers.

Stay well, dear ones. You are mine and I insist you nurture yourselves and each other and stay safe and treasured until I see you again.

(wherever does this urge come from, I wonder?)

I hate that "learning language" and "learning physical skills" work so differently for me than other things. I'm tired of being the old hand in circus still lagging behind newbies. I hate that I've been struggling to learn French for months & my partner & kid are picking things up w/little effort.

I get that "I hurt all the time" & "my hearing is unreliable" are reasonable explanations for my experiences. But it's frustrating that I'm spending so much time lately in modes I struggle with.

also I know where all that boobs comes from, but geez...

am having a "where did all this hair come from?" day. https://witches.town/media/bW773Ryg7hHMwEWCECY