theory: this phase of my cycle comes with a lot of energy, and I begin to suspect it's not *different* energy -- the setting-boundaries comes from the same place as the self-loathing. The latter is what happens when that energy turns inward. What does it look like, she asked, when I deflect it back out instead?

I dunno what it looks like but it *feels* like certainty. Which has been in short supply, of late.