And whatever I do, I still end up facing the same walls, watching younger and faster souls jumping high above the same barriers I will always struggle to climb.

"Life isn't a competition" sounds only nice when you're winning, kids, and you fucking know-it-alls can stop showing up with your platitude I've heard a thousand times before. If I wanted your opinion, if I wanted your advice, I'd fucking ask. Why is it so hard to understand that I just want a shoulder to cry on and the illusion of being understood and appreciated, not your fucking opinion on the many ways I SHOULD be doing this or that?

@seaw if it helps, there are a lot of us down here on this side of the wall watching younger faster people climb over them.

We may not be able to help you over but we can bring you a cup of tea and flip off those bastards backflipping over setbacks like it's no big deal.

@Murkrow Thank you. I shouldn't have posted that; sometimes my frustration just gets the best out of me.

I like that image, though. All of us, this ragtag mismatch of disabled, mentally ill, traumatised, neurodivergent peeps, sitting back against the wall, drinking tea and mocking those who think if we'd just drink a little more water or did a little more yoga we'd get there just like them. What do they know? They might have the sun and the green grasslands but they sure as hell don't have our camaraderie.

@seaw putting up our umbrellas and feigning sleep every time some asshole pokes their head over the other side and goes "you know if you volunteered at an orphanage in the third world you'd get some perspective", waiting until someone says "yoga" to yell back "YOGA! YOOOGAAA!! YOGA!" en masse like seagulls.

Fuck 'em.

@Murkrow Yes! Like seagulls or crows, croaking "Yoga! Yoga! YOGA!" ... Funfact: I've tried yoga. (And qigong. And meditation.) Everyone else can do the dog downward whatever pose, and I can just look at the mat and go "well I can sit, OR I can stand OR I can lie down but I can't really do the in-between thing without needing to be carried to bed with a broken back and a newly found addiction to opiates".

Oh, and have we tried to talk to our doctor about this? Because they're not sure we have, see. We're so silly. If we weren't so silly, if we were doing it right, we wouldn't be like this, obviously!

@seaw oh sweetie have you tried kale, it's a superfood you know, whenever I feel bad I shove a whole kale up my ass and I'm right as rain, a little yoga and some kale will fix any-

What do you mean you have tried kale and it just made your breath smell like stale farts

Y-you uh, probably got uh, prob-it was probably uh. Out of date??? Have you tried... uh... more kale?

@Murkrow My cousin went to a remote mountain in south America and took drugs with shaman there. She puked her guts out for three days and could only eat rice and beans for a month but she said she'd never felt so alive, have you considered that?

... True anecdote.