But they'll be there on my body as evidence that I lived, that I did stuff, that I thought X design was pretty (it doesn't have to be deep!). That I was up to my ears in bat bullshit from the time I was 7, with periods of thinking I was too cool for that. Maybe that I found a video game really meaningful... the stories in the Mass Effect series moved me deeply... that's ok too... I've gone through phases of wanting more pop culture stuff and then deeply judging the idea and why can't I just approach it with openness and joy that I may be all these things?