The writing voice of professional literature is so untrue to my authentic self that it's an extreme struggle to make these words happen. I can write creatively, I can write informatively, I cannot write professionally.
(also still waiting to hear back about my revisions and generally anxious about that one because I have the least faith in it)
Also a note to self: if you don't write words, you can't edit them. So put your head down and write and make it 'sound' better later.