patience ❎ @patience@witches.town

and meanwhile, over on birbsite, i post a thread on public spacing and public realms because that's what i care about and was trained to do…

but as always, it'll go largely ignored by the people who most need to see and think about it, reinforcing my old belief that i'm really shitty and worthless at the thing i should be able to find work in but can't because no trans women at all work in that mostly cis white dude field :sigh:

this is in my brain this morning

let the working hour be in yours as well

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSdstDoZiQw

tfw you get your phone working completely as you had hoped to configure it and you're glad of it and suddenly feel like a relative expert on phones for at least the next fortnight at which time your brain dumps all this newfound knowledge to make room for something more current

"but i don't understand… if i don't have to be a sales person any longer, and i don't have to chase for a buck every waking minute of my life, and i can't make 'deals' anymore with less-informed people, and if i'm not holding shares in a corporation, then what is my purpose in life"

[cue meltdown]

when capitalism abruptly ends, a lot of serial capitalists are going to need therapists and recovery centres

it all goes down when people bring their bots on board

hey uh, masto admins:

i just got blatantly commercial-spammed by a bot from mastodon.social account (losinversoresprivadas@mastodon.social)

hey @Gargron, i'm copying you to this because i don't know whether personally blocking will address this problem

thanks

…passed judgement on me solely by what my ex-mum was feeding into her head, but it was another to find that my dad was there & going along with it.

the time & setting was vague, but elements of where i grew up were there, as was me starting the last car i ever owned (which i last drove in ’01), and what appeared to be my late grandmum's home where i lived during high school. yet somehow, i was an adult, aged probably close to where i am now, & my social expectations of these cis folks were what i'd expect for 2017: disappointment.

altho i gave up on blood family years ago, dreams like this still twist the knife of abandonment hard

as i go about my day (night), i've been feeling out of sorts and i think i'm starting to guess why:

while i was asleep, i had a fairly long, extended dream (nightmare) involving my family of origin, the usual rejection of me by sibs as my abusive ex-mum berates me to my face. but my dad, who lived in his own place, also snubbed me when he didn't show up to a supper i'd prepared for him as dinner guest. when i finally found him, he was with my sibs & ex-mum, and also with another family who had one kid, also trans, they had been treating the exact same way. it was unpleasant that a stranger (other trans person's mum)…

astronomy:

i know this is a day old, but this is the coolest thing i've seen all week: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WS5UxLHbUKc

my cat's got a bunch of pants in her ants rn

one of the things i may have chronic trouble adjusting to with this otherwise-working anti-D is the incredible difficulty i have with getting to sleep. i spent five hours late last night tossing and jittering before i finally zonked out, but then i lost the entire day to 11hrs of sleep. i mean, yeah, 27hrs of being awake prior to trying to lie down had something to do with this, but i can't remember feeling that restlessness (mostly in my limbs) for that long, like ever

so despite trying to re-sync to awake-at-day cycles, it looks like i'll be up all night tonight, yay :|

your neovagina stops being neo after you've watched the Matrix one more time

or if you're like me, who's watched it plenty of times since, my vag's name is Cat Methuselah

holy shit vaporwave.city is available hey @sophia

transhatchl.ing is available for pre-order

ah, hot damn transe.gg is available too

but hey, as consolation, transsexual.pro is available and a lot less spendy than the other

shame how .transsexual isn't a tld, cos career.transsexual… my goodness the snark

so is transsexual.career

and i know of a few people i could donate-transfer that to

wow aborted.career is available

it me