patience ❎ @patience@witches.town

@nex3 before i stopped electrolysis a few years ago (due to not having the means for it), i would take a max strength ibuprofen about an hour or two before the appointment. this helped somewhat

@nex3 i remember the first laser session i did back in ’00, the laser operator, a cis woman, was shocked i wasn't wincing at all from the the pulses (which did feel like an elastic being popped on my face). i said, "this is nothing. i've felt far, far worse."

with the needle, i also struggle when it's above the lip or nearby a nerve. i try to meditate for the rest

@sophia yeah, but these days i think a bit less about how fucked up everything was, yet still dread thinking about what remains ahead. i think cptsd therapy has afforded me to work through more of the past fucked-upness, but that still doesn't leave me with a lot of answers for what's to come, if anything, of my life

hi i made a three-part poll on birbsite please participate if you want: https://twitter.com/patienceinbee/status/870132660902998016

@PinkCathodeCat that's the only utility i find with previously unknown radterfs: when i go thru and already see a lot of previously blocked accounts, then i know i've been doing ok covering my bases :)

@PinkCathodeCat i don't think they blocked anyone. i blocked them because they qualify as a radterf. but not before i went thru their follow/ers to find any radterfs i might have missed blocking previously

but i still don't know how to shake away from this circadian cycle, which is annoying

…once i got back west, there were fears that i wouldn't be allowed back in, but somehow i was. i picked up my cat and also a kitten, but then the kitten got loose before i could get back onto the road back to nyc. around this point, in what seemed like several days, i awoke from the dream.

even this synopsis is abbreviated, as there were other people, other interactions, and other "cameos" of people from my life who appeared, and the vividness of this fictive nyc were quite detailed. i suppose this is all because i hadn't slept long enough for days to reach this stage of sleep, idk

…blowing us through a toll booth and having our tires blown out, all which his org crime grudge was shooting at us (i was freaking out either in the back seat or the passenger seat). once the car stopped, we split up and i ended up in a swampy part of brooklyn. i ran into my friend goldie and we walked for a bit. then i got back to the apartment to try to unpack and plan to go back west with a rental car to pick up my cat & bring back the car in time. as i hit the west, i ran into a familiar — my ex-mum, possessed by a demon with a conscience. she was being motherly & kind to me, which is why i know it wasn't actually her, but i was fine with that…

good news: i slept almost non-stop for seven hours for the first time in a week

bad news: it happened during daytime

rem news: the most vivid dream in a while. not entirely pleasant. i had to suddenly move across the continent to nyc (coming from either van or sea). my estranged cousin was in it. i packed my stuff into a rental car and got a carrier for my cat. the drive across was short, but rainy. at one point, we got pulled over. in nyc, our apt had a coke addict who was my cousin's friend. but realized my cat wasn't with me and was still out west. my cousin had a grudge w/ someone in nyc in organized crime, & we were chased on a tollway…

@MadeByGlamour it's a shame they couldn't bury the hatchet before they both died

@PinkCathodeCat i didn't have much more energy for them, and i blocked them as i do with radterfs. you scared nothing away

@nex3 yeah, i love this one because i actually recognize its muse :)

@nire @drcable you're not name-dropping, are you

@nire @drcable what i'm referring to isn't confined to the period of the internet, but going back much further

@nire @drcable à la carte culture :P

@drcable it's more that i have such little personal knowledge about witches or magic and have never really contextualized myself as witchy until, well, extremely recently

@nire ah

@nire wait… using money is magic?

i speak/articulate gender, yeah