@Morgane these days, what i'm working against is a literal zero T count (which you sort of need in small amounts in order to feel horny)… plus two anti-depressants which kill sex drive. but i'm very slowly working on all of this as a medical "project" with my doctor: once the antidepressants and side effects are being managed OK, i'll be working with her to add small amounts of T. (a decade ago, i'd have a tough time believing i'd be saying this, but bodies are weird that way)

@patience Haha, yup. Had read about it. How T is needed for many things and it's better to have a bit.

I don't know for antidepressants (yet, at least... ), but for what's about T... I think mine dropped drastically, I still have to do analysis to know where it stands. Even though I have maybe the lowest dose of cyproteron/androcur possible. it was really effective, really fast and it shows in many ways. Yet that's because it dropped that my sexual arousal could get to life.

.....Bodies are weeeiiird :v

@Morgane quite so!

i completed genital surgery, like, 13yrs ago, so i've been w/o T all these years (and without a need any longer for cyproterone/spironolactone)

maybe five years ago, there was someone i was dating who made me feel pleasantly erotic and in touch with my body, but she was still dysphoric with her own body and wasn't in a place where being more intimate was possible. anyway, yeah. bodies are weird, but we have a much better sense of how endocrinology works than the average cis person!

@patience It feels weird to see someone that completed surgery a decade ago. As I feel like I will never (and might really never) get a surgery because of how complicated it is in my situation.

But indeed, had forgotten that T production stops after surgery, haha. Damn, and here I am, student in biology (not human phisiology but still).

I guess it's all up to the people you meet ? Bodies are weird, but so is mind ! And yeah, no doubt about it, for experiencing high T, high E, low T, and the middle.... But maybe it's even more "strong" as changing the whole hormonal system is really... brutal ? Like, even stronger effects.

@Morgane well, by the time i was able to do so (with the help of a benefactor), it was 13 years after i voiced as trans and began my transition. by then (2004), nearly all of the people i knew who had started their transitions around when i did (and who started well after i had) had completed genital surgery years earlier then i had. this left me extremely anxious and increasingly desperate. that was not a pleasant period of my life

i would not wish that on anyone, and i hope you do secure the means for surgery sooner than later <3

@patience Good luck and best wishes concerning your treatment, your arousal, and everything you can wish for !