i think i've a clearer sense of what's going on w/in me

this sense of demoralization is a function of my long-term struggle with the compound and substantiated belief that i'm stupid (or not smart enough) & worthless to the capitalist labour market, and to have someone whose main positional/structural advantage is they're in the sole sector which this end-stage capitalism vaunts, it exacerbates a lopsided conversational field

one must show confidence, but may feel insecurity deep down inside; the other isn't very confident & also struggles with residual insecurity which has diminished after 2 1/2yrs of ctpsd therapy & healing work

rough guess