panickyintheuk @panickyintheuk@witches.town

Wow, it was my first social network too! And super queer (my corner of it, at least), when there weren't a lot of queer spaces online. There goes, like, 75% of its user base, surely??
https://witches.town/@stalfos/213785

Apologies for bad laptop cam

2 cat snakes. Sleepy & licky https://witches.town/media/WQwYkhkAoJpEk28EqsU https://witches.town/media/RPhMGDxhLsY62pzGrgQ https://witches.town/media/NtR-C0hetZMxLeqrYPg

It's no longer #caturday at all but here is my other cat snake. She's sleepy https://witches.town/media/2ub03Bn5k7j_EPUkIUc

@cmdrspacebabe Ugh, sorry, *hypomanic episodes

@cmdrspacebabe Anyway I feel like I'm taking up a lot of your time at this point, but thanks again, I really appreciate the info, and it's good just to have a sounding board!

@cmdrspacebabe I don't think of myself as particularly physically restless, active or fidgety, either. If anything I think of myself as being physically lazy. Looking at that checklist, I'd say I'd tick three of the shaded boxes in part A (1, 2 & 4), with 3 being kind of a "no, but"; 5 & 6, not really (although having said that, I did consider that I might be cyclothymic at one stage, and #6 does sound like what I thought might be manic episodes? But it's not my default state)

@cmdrspacebabe RE journals, that's pretty much what I use habitica for. I could probably utilise it a bit more rigorously, but it's definitely made a HUGE difference. I think that's probably better than a physical journal for me, because I seem to do better with digital than analogue on the whole.

My gut's saying the shoe fits, but I'm not sure I'd necessarily fulfil the diagnostic criteria, for the coping strategy/avoidance reasons we talked about (and again, depression complicates things)

@cmdrspacebabe In terms of the checklist, for a lot of the items I'm looking at them and thinking "well, I don't do that, but only because X" - like, I don't forget appointments because I write EVERYTHING down and am very careful about it, and I don't make a lot of careless mistakes because I tend to triple-check everything. So I don't know if that's a coping mechanism or evidence against, you know?

@cmdrspacebabe Yes, absolutely! And the jumping around is a huge thing for me. Like, I'll pause an episode of something on Netflix to imdb someone, and then as soon as I have the computer open I'll think of three other things I want to check, and then half an hour later I remember I left the episode on pause. The last year and a bit I've been using habitica, and that's helped me a lot with daily tasks, but then I have to-dos that aren't that major but hang around for weeks

@cmdrspacebabe EVERYTHING on your list is extremely applicable to me. I kind of figured it was related to depression, and I guess there's a lot of spillover. Interestingly I don't think of myself as easily bored, but maybe that's because I'm a very vivid daydreamer? I'm also pretty good at finding something to distract myself with. Thanks for the link - not everything feels applicable, but for some of them that's because I've developed coping mechanisms, so it's tricky

@cmdrspacebabe Sorry to spam you, but I was just looking at the webmd page for inattentive-type ADHD - it's talking about diagnosis in children. Don't know how differently it presents in adults, but thought I'd mention that of the symptoms listed, I'm also a huge daydreamer, very messy, and sometimes have slow processing speed

@cmdrspacebabe but when I mentioned my suspicions to my mother she actually burst out laughing at me, which was really upsetting, and I kind of put the idea to one side for a little while, and then I heard someone on a podcast talking about it recently and everything he was saying sounded so familiar. On a slightly separate note, I googled wellbutrin again and apparently it IS available here, but for quitting smoking (which I already did, actually), so it would be an off-label use

@cmdrspacebabe Thank you, I really appreciate that. I don't know that my depression is necessarily a consequence of ADHD; depression runs in my family on both sides, so I think it's probably a distinct thing. I started to have suspicions about ADHD a little while ago - I have trouble finishing books these days, and even getting through films and eps of TV shows without lots of breaks; following through on things is a challenge; if I have a deadline, I start at the last possible minute

I don't think I'm gonna get any writing done tonight :/ :/ :/

It's still #Caturday here, JUST, so here's some quick 'n' blurry pics of me and one of my cat snakes (she's licky) https://witches.town/media/C3WW0wiH68sNiI1oNcs https://witches.town/media/YOhgdPX5f_npyPihIKA https://witches.town/media/deGL0GgH9RVo0kY6uUM

@cmdrspacebabe I gotta run but I'd really like to continue this later if you don't mind!

@cmdrspacebabe Right, and it tends to present differently in women, yeah? See, I have a pretty strong feeling that I have it (and it sounds like for me it would be 'inattentive type' too - that pings pretty hard for me), but I don't have a very good GP, and I don't really have anyone in my life that I trust to be a good ear for me to talk about it with, so it's tricky. I heard about wellbutrin a while ago and it sounded like it might be good for me, but don't think it's licensed in UK

@Ciara I like the blue!

@cmdrspacebabe Sorry, you kind of already answered my Q about wellbutrin. My bad, I must have been skimming without realising :rolling_eyes: I kiiinda think I might have ADD but everyone I talk to about it thinks that's ridiculous because I don't have the "classic symptoms" or "personality" or whatever, so, idk