@Eve i'm sorry you are hurting.

also, when I wrote my response, I felt somehow guilty or I questioned what right do I have to be smart and explain (mansplain?) things to you from my position which IS privileged (white male cishet).

all I perhaps wanted to say is that there are people in this world that haven't gone through what you did but that can hear you and support you.

maybe a good strategy is to surround yourself with those and loosen ties with those who don't and bring mostly toxicity in your life and heart.

stay strong ❤