🍞 ich bin nora 🍞 @nora@witches.town

Hello! I thought i'd participate in the #introduction tradition. 😀

I'm from Berlin, 29, non-binary trans and pan. Currently i prefer to have no pronoun, but *they* and *it* are fine, too. I'm into game development, comics, radio plays and podcasts and i'm interested in smashing patriarchy, liberating animals and helping build hierarchy free infrastructures, so one day there might be no need for governments anymore. Do you think i fit to ?

Also, to make this toot a little weird (because weird is good), let me tell you that my current deodorant smells like cucumber. And that i like that. 😏🥒

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Lulululululululululu! Lalalalalalala! Hello! I just woke up and can't sleep again. So ein Mist 😁

Gerade von einem Termin nach Hause gekommen. Ekliges Wetter: kalt, grau und nass... Herbst. Zwei Minuten nachdem ich drin war, fing es an zu nieseln. Gutes Timing trotzallem 😀

7 Euro mehr Hartz 4 ab 2018. Zeit, shoppen zu gehen! Wie bei jeder Erhöhung stellt sich auch dieses Mal die Frage, für welchen Flachbildfernseher, welches Auto und welche Drogen ich mein von ehrlichen, anderen Menschen in harter Arbeit erwirtschaftetes Geld diesmal ausgeben werde.

Gar nicht so leicht bei dem allgemeinen Überangebot. 🤔

Walking through the street and waiting for the bus, i dared to take a look around me. Advertisement and money losing opportunities whereever my eyes pointed to. I avoid advertisement since almost 10 years, as long as i have stopped watching TV. I don't want this shit in my brain.

All those colorful, exhausting lights around me... Listening to people talking about stuff they could bought or about Facebook... I made a decision. One of my main long-term goals in life will be from now on: Somehow break out of capitalism.

And that means that i need skills. Learning how to build a wooden, isolated house for example might be helpful skill. Or to grow my own food

All those people attacking me and others because of their own insecurity.

Men feeling attacked by the simple presence of a trans*woman or a homosexual man? Because they feel their masculinity attacked?

That does not mean the trans* woman is sick or the homosexual man. It just means that your identity is based on illusions and therefore fake. It has absolutely nothing to do with me or anyone else. It is *your* problem.

People feeling attacked because of me living vegan and not even saying something?

Also has nothing to do with me. You just hate the fact that it's possible and that you, very very deep inside your soul, fucking agree with me.

Since i can imagine people try to make me "become a vital part of society" or similar. By attacking me, by hating me, by making me a crazy, lonely outsider. Or in short: Using violence. Which means that their society is based on that. It's based on a "Eat or die" logic. Be part of the System or get exterminated.

Seriously, why should i want to be take part of this? Why participate in violence? Why want to be like that? 🤔

A system which needs brutal violence to function is fake and should be abandoned.

Why on earth should i care for the opinion of people i wouldn't even go drink something with? Or even sit on the same table with? 😶

Since i exist I'm getting attacked, verbally and physically. From people who should protect me, just the same as from people i don't even know. My bare existence seems to be considered a problem.

I'm slowly beginning to stop giving a shit. There are indeed people i want to acknowledge me. All others can go to hell until they prove trustworthy.

Seriously. 🖕😶

I need a new psychiatrist. The new one is a manipulative prick. She seems to think wage labor is the meaning of life, thinks i should feel bad because i live from state welfare and that i don't do enough to get better (get available for wage labor).

She even tried to make me feel bad because i have not come over for a new medical certificate. I'm depressed, can't do shit and should feel bad again about this? That's the same as hitting children after they hurt themselves.

The more shit happens to me, the more i feel like i just don't WANT to be part of this sick society. I don't WANT to "find my place in society". No! Fuck you!

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Der schöne Farbwechselbaum vor meinem Fenster verliert seine Blätter und wird langsam nackig. Nooiiin! Ich finde das immer so schade, jedes Jahr diese Schmach.

Hallo Herbst 😩☔

#berlin #herbst

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The beautiful color changing tree behind my window starts to lose its leaves and turns nekkid. Noooo! I don't like that, every year this disgrace.

Hello autumn 😩☔

#berlin #autumn

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I'm sure they read my message on the fediverse, are very nice people and stop immediately. Just for me. 😊💖

Oh woman. The whole day since morning there are people working with a pneumatic hammer.

Hard to not go crazy. I woke up with headache and still have it. 💀 STAAAAHHHHHHP!

Requested my new identity card today. In two and a half weeks i have it and then i can start changing my documents. I smile. #trans

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20° degrees Celsius in Berlin. Enjoying one of the last sunny days this year wearing a T-Shirt and tights. It's so waaarm 🌞

Had a relaxed day with a dear friend, eating apple cake, drinking black tea and oat cocoa, talking, smiling and laughing. In the end i started feeling bad, about my body, my appearance and i just wanted to get home as fast as possible. Typical trans related dysphoria stuff among others. I couldn't bear myself. Got home and it vanished in less than three minutes. I think because i felt safe again being at home in my small safer space. But my friend also made me a compliment at the bus station. Guess that helped me through it too. Feeling better now.

Friends areone of the best "things" to have in life. Thank you! Feel hugged 👭🌈

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5 hours later: The toot has arrived.

Still not cool.

Choking on tasty gingerbread is not cool. Cough! Cough! 😵

Now over 2 hours later, the toot has not or never reached mastodon.social. Giving up, this is not cool.

This toot was sent 32 minutes ago from me and still hasn't reached mastodon.social. 😣

If i include a mention, it appears in less than a second. This is not a normal delay to be expected. 🤔