Reading about depersonalization in trans folks and realizing that this was much of my life prior to HRT and got so much better with…
… until I started hitting maximum dosage recently.

And now most of the time I honestly feel pretty numb. It is likely a reason I tend to go on rants…… it's like there is this filter somewhere. Like I know I should be feeling these things and know that I do feel them but I'm not like… feeling them.

It honestly makes a lot of sense regarding my tendancy to rant so much. I KNOW I have these feelings but I'm not feeling them and so I go on and on for no other reason but to try and feel them.

I'm quickly realizing that I've been going back to feeling just as dysphoric as before and I'm really glad I dropped my dosage some.

@Oneironott yaaaa and timing w/ job stuff makes me thing its probably related to the job issues you were having that you seemed to think were caused by trans stuff, if you havent connected that dot yet