having just written something somewhat related, i sort of just realised that were it not for cis people being shitty about gender and the gatekeeping thereof, i'd probably be cool b eing a boy on estrogen + antiandrogens.
because for me a loooooot of it was that testosterone was very much the wrong brain soup, and the physical changes are... less a thing for me? I want bigger breasts and i dont really want my bits, but a lot of that is social pressures from cis people being awful. I could do with GRS, but I care so little about my genitals.
I'm cool with agender and woman side of things, its just, one of those things where i think were it not for cis people, i wouldnt have ever nudged myself towards woman before i went to agender, which has changed a lot of my thoughts on things
and im not sure how i feel about that,since i think this was a positive exp other than the hate
but seriously, fuck cis people