because for me a loooooot of it was that testosterone was very much the wrong brain soup, and the physical changes are... less a thing for me? I want bigger breasts and i dont really want my bits, but a lot of that is social pressures from cis people being awful. I could do with GRS, but I care so little about my genitals.

I'm cool with agender and woman side of things, its just, one of those things where i think were it not for cis people, i wouldnt have ever nudged myself towards woman before i went to agender, which has changed a lot of my thoughts on things

and im not sure how i feel about that,since i think this was a positive exp other than the hate