miss a lot of people and super miss places i've never been
part of that is because home has never really been home, the majority of people i love has always been Elsewhere and always will be, because unfortunately i am a denizen of The Internet and physical spaces are so spread apart.
but theres definately strong pulls to certain places and people
well. I am middle class, in all of the most inconvenient ways. I am a constant drain on parents because of disability, but theres just enough that i cant get on benefits, i also cant. work.
i would work for shitty pay just to get away from them again if i could
things were looking good, and then my legs stopped really working how they're supposed to, over the course of three months. i'd always been exhausted, but it got way worse
and then i tried to do it again, and it came crashing down again
and just.
yeah
its been eight months, so idk. my life has been in stasis for like four years, except its been more like 18, since thats as long as people havent believed my symptoms and kept saying i was just lazy and its all my fault, so
@nire so much same here... sigh v.v
i hate all the times i've put lots of work into building a home and building a life to have it come crumbling down because im not cis, abled, and middle class