wanna touch partners and close friends who want it but theres like, no one actually near me *audible pout*
also having a lot of things outside of the bounds of a traditional transactional relationship was nice and part of why i had so many friends i would just like, be sexualish with with all sides consenting, but that has its own issues, just, oh god so much less than ones with traditional expectations -.-.
but sometimes i like some of the other things in relationships because sometimes they're good