i sometimes indulge in this little fantasy of mine like ... i know I'm gonna be an "ordinary" person in the sense I'll most likely have a 9-5 job as a social worker and live in a flat and have cats and just live my life. but i have this dream that I'll go to the theatre in london and meet jen backstage. that I'll get signed books in the mail with personal messages from my author friends. just, be a regular person seeing my friends succeed and being so so happy for them.