@ph4nt yeah. it definitely doesn't help, per se. but sometimes it's the only way to just get these feelings out. i hope she'll be ok too.

@nergdron There u'r right! That's why i love such music - it doesn't help to feel better in that way, but it kinda comforts or helps coping with...Can u go to Seattle to maybe ...stand by her?

@ph4nt i don't know. i'm still trying to get details. and my passport is not at all up to date so crossing the border makes me really scared, given how fucking psychotic us border guards are. but i'll probably try.

@nergdron Oh shit, just saw...u'd have to cross borders...not that nice given todays U.S.' policies :/ Easy to say, but...i think u should try :) Wish u all the best!

@Maenad thank you. i appreciate it.