Sarah @mimtschan@witches.town

hm. bored but no spoons to do anything

i did it time to not move anymore today except meet Matti at the grocery store

lol now I'm gonna have to use one of the 2 spoons i recharged by doing next to nothing for 4 hours to go get my shitty uncle his stupid Christmas ornaments

two more hours to kill and then no work for four days. wish it was longer.

!!!!! my girlfriend is coming to visit in march !!!! just booked the flight !!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh

my aesthetic

i feel so drained. i feel like the life is being sucked out of me. everything is a strain, getting myself food or whatever or going outside, and there is no way i can sit through a social situation right now. even work is kind of too much.
i just want my energy back, but the more i have to do, the less spoons i have.

in addition, my dickhead uncle (who cheated on my aunt forever and is now living with his gf who he's probably already cheating on too lol) keeps pestering me about those Christmas ornaments that used to belong to my grandparents and that he wants to get from me
and i don't want to see him or go through the trouble of getting that shit from the basement for him

i wanna nap again
I'm still kinda exhausted from yesterday and I'm supposed to read a paper on unification until Saturday for the one class that I'm not dropping and there's a thing that i gotta go to tonight, also tomorrow and technically on Saturday but I'm probably gonna skip that
Christmas is stressful and i wanna do nothing but hibernate until February

ehmmmm I'm sitting at work, not really able to do anything. just signed off the phone because i cannot focus on what the customers are saying at all and it's sooo difficult to listen and support them. now I'm trying to catch up on since documentation but it's not working much better.
I'm wondering if I'm still tired from the weed yesterday or if my anxiety attack from yesterday just drained me so much I'm still out of spoons today. sigh can't wait to go home

when your girlfriend is really attentive in a potentially anxieties inducing situation and reassure you without you having to mention or ask
🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈
(i'm ridiculously emotional about this)