Sarah @mimtschan@witches.town

also apparently i'm literally even too stupid to just copy a solution from the internet. sometimes i really, really, really doubt i'll ever be able to work as a developer one day

great. it is now 10; i should go to sleep; i have not even managed one exercise from the task sheet, and i haven't done any of last week's task for that class either (i need at least 50% so i don't fail). there's a second class for which i haven't even started the homework. 🙃

why can't i do anything? why can i just not get started in time? why can't i manage to think and focus properly even with ritalin? why is the semester not even halfway over?

lol my brain just doesn't work i guess i'm still trying around with the same function and it's been over an hour. why can i not just figure this out and then get a break pls thinking is so exhausting

yeahhhh my brain is now having that same issue with logical programming and every time i think i got something it slips right outta my hands. i'm already trying to write it down to keep my thoughts in focus but nopedy-nope.

ok now i'm at the "omg this looked easy but my brain is actually in knots forever" stage

btw is this maybe an #adhd thing that it took me the longest time to firgure out how to write recursive functions?? i feel like it might be because the lack of brain RAM i have and it's a suuuper convoluted way of thinking to me

and now, 2+ years in, i can do it but only when i'm alone (at home or during exams), but i could never write one while i'm standing at the blackboard in front of everyone or figure out a solution while i'm in class

i took a ritalin earlier tho and i think it iiiiis helping?

me: has only basically copied task descriptions down into a file
me: "wow cool i'm already almost done"

i love how i go from "uuuughhh dont wanna do this" to "omg this actually sounds fun i'll do this entire thing in like half an hour and be done!!!" (spoiler alert: i won't and also i'll go back to the first in -12 minutes)

i wish i could do a small programming project to have fun with coding again but. i can't as long i have to do that for uni? bc I'll always feel the uni stuff is more dire. and then i do neither.

i should've said: the first page of the script

I'm so bad at doing hw tbh I've been staring at the script i should read first for the past hour+

hello i wore a cute today uwu https://witches.town/media/oM0JTqR-_8Ap1kVLelw

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