Sarah @mimtschan@witches.town

another hour oh lordi why does this work day last foreverrrrrr

@nergdron @amphetamine lol. that's really hard to imagine around here. i want to believe the company I'm applying to might value a bunch of these things, but they haven't answered me anymore and now I'm worried sighhh

@nergdron @amphetamine gosh true, that's a good thing to think about. I'm pretty sure i can be good at this. i just need an environment where I'm allowed to grow.

at this point i can't even take the others' phones ringing the sound is just... ughhhhh like nails on a chalkboard

can the phone please stop ringing kill me

@nergdron @amphetamine thank you. 💜 that's kind of the encouragement i need, that it is possible, because if everyone just keeps telling me that I'll have to just accept that things are shitty, that... makes me really disheartened and question whether I'm ever going to find the right thing for me. sigghh

@amphetamine (I'm not saying you did that btw. mostly thinking of my parents. as if "that's just how it is" would somehow negate the trouble i have with a situation.)

@amphetamine ugh. it's just so frustrating. i know people keep telling me "that's just how it is" and "most companies are like that" as if that's a reason to accept it

EVERYONE would benefit from exchange and feedback and workflows. why is that so much to ask apparently?

I'm p sure I'll always have trouble in my work life because things like this frustrate me and get me off balance so much. i can be really motivated for work but not if workflows are made so hard because i NEED some structure and some way to contribute meaningfully

i know nobody can change that, but. i hate that is just taken as a given thing and you're naive to want to change

it is so frustrating to have a brain that keeps thinking about how to improve and structure stuff constantly, one of the few things i can do well, but you feel like there's a sound proof wall between you and management.
I'm not overly upset and i only have 5 more work days here after today. but honestly, i feel really trapped here. and i hope to make better experiences in the future. please tell me not every software dev company is like this.

customer telling me for 15 min that our software keeps having massive problems & bugs & we don't work on things working correctly enough. i know lady. i know that it should be self evident to test new features before releasing them. i know priorization is super fucked up & we'll rather release something our CEO decided on a whim than features customers have been requesting for years. i know that our design & technology choices are super behind. i know that we (by which i mean sales & the boss) keep making false promises about new releases. but i also know that changing things or applying constructive feedback isn't a thing here. leave me alone.

i already made it through more than half of the day yeessssss

@nergdron aw tessa :< take care and get lots of rest!! feel very hugged, hope you feel better soon!

@cats @punsandpotions awww this is my babyyyyy

@morae ;-;;;;;;; this is the best