customer telling me for 15 min that our software keeps having massive problems & bugs & we don't work on things working correctly enough. i know lady. i know that it should be self evident to test new features before releasing them. i know priorization is super fucked up & we'll rather release something our CEO decided on a whim than features customers have been requesting for years. i know that our design & technology choices are super behind. i know that we (by which i mean sales & the boss) keep making false promises about new releases. but i also know that changing things or applying constructive feedback isn't a thing here. leave me alone.

it is so frustrating to have a brain that keeps thinking about how to improve and structure stuff constantly, one of the few things i can do well, but you feel like there's a sound proof wall between you and management.
I'm not overly upset and i only have 5 more work days here after today. but honestly, i feel really trapped here. and i hope to make better experiences in the future. please tell me not every software dev company is like this.

@mimtschan not all

disgustingly common though, there's a book by Douglas Coupland related to this called Microserfs

@amphetamine ugh. it's just so frustrating. i know people keep telling me "that's just how it is" and "most companies are like that" as if that's a reason to accept it

EVERYONE would benefit from exchange and feedback and workflows. why is that so much to ask apparently?

I'm p sure I'll always have trouble in my work life because things like this frustrate me and get me off balance so much. i can be really motivated for work but not if workflows are made so hard because i NEED some structure and some way to contribute meaningfully

i know nobody can change that, but. i hate that is just taken as a given thing and you're naive to want to change

@mimtschan @amphetamine I wouldn't say it's a given thing that you're naive to want to change. what it means is that this is something specific to look for when looking for work and applying for jobs. yeah, a lot of shitty companies does this wrong, because capitalism is the death of good. but you can find places that do it relatively right, I know, I'm at one of them.

so don't give up hope darling.

@nergdron @amphetamine thank you. 💜 that's kind of the encouragement i need, that it is possible, because if everyone just keeps telling me that I'll have to just accept that things are shitty, that... makes me really disheartened and question whether I'm ever going to find the right thing for me. sigghh

@mimtschan @amphetamine yeah. it's not the default, but it's certainly out there. and that's the nice thing about there being a big demand for tech workers, once you've got a little experience you can afford to be more picky.

@nergdron @amphetamine gosh true, that's a good thing to think about. I'm pretty sure i can be good at this. i just need an environment where I'm allowed to grow.