i feel so drained. i feel like the life is being sucked out of me. everything is a strain, getting myself food or whatever or going outside, and there is no way i can sit through a social situation right now. even work is kind of too much.
i just want my energy back, but the more i have to do, the less spoons i have.

@mimtschan you need a break. i hope you can have one soon, darling. ❤

@nergdron thank you so much. 💜 i just wish i could just drop work immediately like i can with uni. but I'll have to do that coding contest next week and it's really stressing me out, not because i think it'll be so hard but because tasks like this (focusing for up to 4 hours) seem impossible with my current energy level
and even with uni - i asked my partner for that one Proseminar today if he'd be ok with me quitting and he asked me to continue. that's... sigh. every little thing is weighing on me so much.
sorry for going off about it like that ahh. i just want to be with my cule rn, really badly.