@morae i feel like i don't even wanna get through this because what i'm afraid of is all the effort, i guess i wanna whine and be upset until someone feels so sorry for me they say i just NEED to quit uni right now lol (because i can't really justify quitting in the middle of the semester and i shouldn't and then the bit i've done would be for nothing, but ... yeah idk it's how my brain works. 🙈 )