my only problem about this is that i'm not sure if i'm seeing this objectively but just twisting and turning it the way i want it. but i also kind of need this decision, a finish line in sight, not another year or more ahead in which i have to write my bachelor's thesis. i'm so scared of it, and i cannot do that in my current state where i want to NOT do anything for uni with such a passion. it's not just "eh, i'm too lazy for it right now". it's more like "i don't want to i don't want to please don't make me".
and i just wish i didn't have to finish the semester first.there's so much left to do and i'm so low on energy.