i've been finding it hard to deal with the situation that i have zero motivation for uni. i think this is an adhd thing maybe, but i often feel like i can be extremely excited and motivated for something, but after a while i might lose that and then it doesn't just get hard for me to continue with it but it turns into a chore and it's all consuming and i start hating every second of it and that i have to think about it all the time. i've tried hard to fight through it, but at this point it just feels to me like i absolutely HAVE to take a break if i want it to get better. i need to get some distance from it, until i WANT to do it again.
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this is hard because i feel like i'm giving up and like there's no guarantee that i'll feel better after a break. but i've been considering it for a while and now i am pretty sure that after this semester, i'll take a break from uni and find a job, try to do some programming in my free time, whatever i wanna do, so i become more passionate about it again and remember why i wanted to do it - which is because i enjoy programming and want to get into it, not because of academia. i think the worst case is i'll find a job and not want to get back to uni and not get my degree and earn a bit less. but i think that would still be ok?