👉@meena@glitch.social @meena@witches.town

this is my first #introductions, so, hi

i'm meena! this is my queer account. or rather, my (most of the time) non-technical account.

i'm a femme leaning enby; i speak Bosnian, German, and English, and i'm trying to learn فارسی.

i try to speak openly about my depression: https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/opensource-burnout/

i'm self-employed in tech, if you care about that, sometimes i say smart things over at @hirojin

my politics are mostly naïve, so, ask me in in 10 years

es gibt *einen* artzt in 50km umgebung der meinen Kriterien ("Sexulatität: Transsexualität") entspricht. *einen*

ich hoff nur, dass irgendwas einfach nur grob fahrlässig falsch mach…

i used to write a lot about my mental health (trigger warnings GALORE)

- https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/coming-out/
- https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/crazy-in-love/
- https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/happy-anniversary/
- https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/metaphors/
- https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/secrets/
https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/growing-up/
https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/there-and-back-again-stockholm/
- https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/a-friend-died-last-night/
- https://blag.esotericsystems.at/articles/opensource-burnout/

but i appear to have reached a point where i just can't do that anymore…
my thoughts are fuzzier and i'm more easily distracted, more anxious about prying them out and putting them together… what will it reveal? what will it do, once it's in the open?

i dunno if this is a generational thing but a lot of my childhood & teens were spent in terror first, and then apathy

i managed to escape that by living fast, and doing drugs! and then just drinking loads in my twenties…

until i couldn't anymore. i started therapy, then stopped drinking, and smoking and smoking…
… and i'm still just trying to put myself together while slowly falling apart… physically, and mentally.

and all i can think of is… "this is unfair"

02:02: the cats have settled down. Time for some light bedtime reading http://pubs.acs.org/doi/full/10.1021/acsomega.7b01521

I've seen some searing hot takes by white people how Othello could just as well be (played by a) white man, and wow, like, did you people read that thing??

i also wonder now, if these same people would also think that Shylock doesn't have to be Jewish

are werewolves furries?

i just named a file uwu.jpeg,because android wouldn't let me name it :3.jpeg

why are all the cute girls misgendered in hentai? just because they have dicks?? your tags are bad, website! and so are these scanlations!

i heated some potato mash in the microwave

or, how i accidentally created the hottest substance in this solar system

after a second cup of coffee i can now tell with some certainty: this headache might not be related to a lack of caffeine

do you ever feel like growing more fingers, just so you can have better knuckle tats!?

watching frostbiten

a swedish vampire movie

swedish is the weirdest german

my life could've been so easy

instead i discovered software
…and genders.

i want to update my avi to a cuter picture but i don't want to be confused for @hirojin

maybe dreams, too, would be less fucked up if brains were less bad

let's ask the perfect life form, tardigrades, what they dream about