i've been kinda feeling like shit about that lately anyway. i spend a lot of time very unproductively looking at like, apartment listings i can't ever feasibly afford.

i'm about to move out to the middle of nowhere which means i'll leave the house even less than i do and have even less autonomy. i am so incredibly sick of depending on other people, of having what i do fundamentally in their hands

i've been sick of it for years though and that's never done anything. harumph.