looking at old pictures of myself made me feel kinda bad like, i'm not really very different from that person. i have marginally better politics and i'm better at making video games. i haven't really gone anywhere.

and also it's reminding me of when i felt like i actually had like, friends, and a community, both of which i think i have now but it feels different. i don't trust anyone anymore. the world is so much worse than it was in those pictures, which kinda compensates for my personal mental health improvements to keep my sadness at equilibrium.