because i've literally *never* felt like that. and there's this temptation that i think a lot of people have where you just kind of assume that everyone else is fundamentally like you, so if i see someone who claims to believe in god then my immediate feeling is that they must be faking it to try and fit in or to try and feel better about their own mortality, because if *I* was claiming to believe in god that's what *i'd* be doing!