i think the big difference between me then and me now is that now i understand (at least on like a knowledge level, i don't think i've fully internalized this) that for most people religion is not like based on some kind of logical process by which they reason their religion must be true, it's just that like, they feel like it's true and that it's useful

and therefore the sort of thing that a lot of young (and unfortunately adult) atheists are prone to, where you try to "debunk" the existence of god, isn't actually really relevant to the way religion exists in the world