linen @linen@witches.town

hi! I didn't do an #introduction so here goes:

I'm 29, cis lesbian in Canada (she/her pronouns)

I have a lot of hobbies and I tend to cycle through them, but the big ones are:
#knitting #drawing #piano #ukulele #videogames

I have a bunch of mental health ~stuff~ going on, and I'm working very hard to be an emotionally stable person. I tend to do a lot of emotional labour and can get intense about things.

in school I studied knowledge integration, math, and art, so I know small bits about lots of different things.

I teach beginner knitting (which I love) and do tech support for my day job (which I hate)

I want to make friends, so talk to me!

sometimes I'm like "why am I like this" and then I remember taking 8 years to finish my degree and the amount of academic writing I did

ok, second email is done, and it's only ~500 words and has no sections, so clearly I've calmed down a bit since last year when I wrote a 5000 word email about my feelings, complete with titled and numbered sections, subsections, and sub-subsections

oh no I have several emotionally intense emails/letters to write and I'm so anxious

ok, I'm going to learn to play this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmKlYaygCek

because, unlike most of the stuff I've been trying to play recently, it's actually a reasonable thing to learn for my current skill level. yes. good. (apparently I only want to play chopin atm)

I have gotten a lot better at sight reading though

I'm really enjoying playing the piano again! but I've lost a lot of my skill, and it's frustrating bc I really want to play LOUD and FAST, which is fine for songs where I just improvise chords, but not so much for pieces like Chopin's Nocturnes (I only know/knew a couple, but they were so. good.)

something in me is going a bit overboard though, bc every stray idea I have, I'm like YES THIS IS BRILLIANT DO THIS, but that is a fast way to burn out and fall down again, so gotta keep things reasonable

coming out of a depressive episode is weird bc I'm like....interested in things again? I want to do stuff and learn things! what is this?!

I think I'm going to hang one of my new prints above the piano (but I'm not sure which one yet. maybe the tree one?) then I can stare at it while I'm playing! yesss

actually no, I'm so invested in improving my living space because every single small positive change I made makes me measurably happier

I'd probably be less invested if I didn't work from home, or started actually leaving the house more than a couple times a week

one day I'll be interested in things other than optimizing my living space, but today is not that day

I think I need to get a second rainbow keyboard to use when I want to lie down and type, because it feels so good to type on, isn't super expensive, and also does rainbow light shows. (plus my current backup keyboard is just so bad)

why do I not spend my entire life applying heat to my body

I want to install a baseboard heater in my bed omg

I messed up my neck somehow, and instead of getting up for a heating pad I've lined up my spine along the gap at the top of the baseboard heater and it feels unreasonably good wow

...must somehow acquire an art gallery. I'm running out of wall space.