cailleach✅ @lichlike@witches.town

punchline

what up witch town

i think having my interview and really feeling excited for that potential job has made me realize how much i don't feel comfortable at this job??

why am i still obsessed with possession after i am free? why am i still so scared of it?

perhaps it is because of the panic i still when my body is not my own and i must run.

i will be fine. i keep avoiding reading psalm 91 again. i was so nervous and yet so strong when i read it at church. i know it would give me strength, but i am afraid of belief. i am afraid of having faith and being disappointed.

possession by demons, possession by our biology. what does it mean to possess. i think of an invisible grip that is tight. but, even when i am held tight to the point of pain by my lover, i don't feel possessed.

this afternoon i am dwelling on Mother Joan of the Angels. i think on forgiving the self. when the self hurts itself how one can accept grace.

of all those who made my life difficult, i have the most reservation of grace for the self. perhaps i can make space between others and me, but i am always here.

excited to trudge through this afternoon and see sarah

have my work review soon and it's honestly so hard to care. maybe i'm getting sick.

when is everything going to fall down

insufferable

how do i know if someone isn't me

*countup

countdown to someone trying to monetize mastodon 1...2 .......3

i am eating an aphrodite sandwich

i'm one of the lucky ones on witches.town????? how do we idk

@mattlaschneider hahaha
:P

feeling.... pouty? https://witches.town/media/COfbdHlhEI_HISRL9Ik

i have a neck sad