g, which is short for "goth" @lichclown@witches.town

@queercatsunited you are not an awful snake parent imo; it sounds like you were concerned about her and made a mistake

at my dbt group each meeting we say how our self-destructive urges have been for the past week and there are some people who Never have them and it boggles my mind

that feel when things blend together and im crying about mr rappaport and about bronwyn and about my other mice who have passed away and about bobby all at the same time

i thought i was done mourning bobby but i guess not

he was the most amazing person i have met ever i think and i miss him

the concept of death fucks me up on an existential level
its so. Weird and upsetting and i don't understand

gave bronwyn some kitten milk replacement and she doesn't Like being syringe-fed but im worried she won't eat otherwise

the wizard website has an archive of fanmail and theres a lot of letters saying things to the effect of "you're such a warm and positive person and i hope your personal life is as good as your show" and im a Bit Weepy now
depression is so fucking bad and its so, so hard to process love and admiration from other people when your brain is telling you over and over that you shouldnt be alive

i wish i could have had the chance to tell him how important he is to me and to other people but also i know it likely wouldnt have made much difference to him

@Sylvhem go ahead- i appreciate the apology

@Sylvhem im not trying to be rude but please dont make that kind of joke on my posts

the wizard is a confusing show because i kind of want to date simon mckay, but also i want to be him, but also i wish he was my dad

lately i've started thinking about my mood level in terms of "okay what do i need to do to make myself happy and energized enough to complete tasks" and its kind of weird

like thats a big part of why i started smoking as much as i did, because it helps my motivation by boosting my mood

the fact that i need to put food into my body to keep it functional is Terrible and i will not stand for it!

every time i watch the wizard Please picture me with big cartoon hearts flying around my head

i wish i didnt dread my psych appointments as much as i do.. theyre not even that Stressful i just hate, having to go to them

mostly i really want a vape for dried material (mostly weed but i occasionally smoke other herbs; i really like chamomile and catnip) bc i dont have easy access to concentrates or liquids and also i smoke a lotta weed but i also have pets and if i had a vape i wouldnt have to worry about them being affected by me using nearby

@I_am_journei omg i had never heard of these before but they look really interesting! the reviews seem good overall and i am a big fan of aromatherapy.... i'll definitely keep it in mind, thanks for the tip!