g, which is short for "goth" @lichclown@witches.town

@rhythmgoddesss i think so- i can offer advice on coping if you like, but if you just want to vent that's ok too! (mostly we know a bunch of dbt skill stuff)

ive been fronting so much more lately and its so nice and im!!! happy aaah (this is g)

wondering how many ppl on mastodon know us as "that multiple system containing a homestuck fictive and also someone who posts constantly about david rappaport" and honestly we are tickled pink by this.... what a reputation to have

@soonmide same...

@orangefreeze hey!!

very glad abt this pantomime program

i cant Believe theres been all this lightning mcqueen nsfw talk and no mention of two trucks

@kara_dreamer idk what easy to fixate on means but i Love mushroom garden neo

also i'm very Bitter at every person who has repeated sth to the effect of "rappaport looked down on his costars bc he thought he was a better actor" because like... idk about the backgrounds of mike edmonds and malcolm dixon but afaik kenny baker, jack purvis, and tiny ross all had a background in vaudeville/circus-type acts and rappaport didnt have anything like that; afaik he started acting in university
and i dont want to make too many assumptions but, i can easily see how that dissonance of experiences could make him very uncomfortable and hard to work with

there's an article abt rappaport's death and also an excerpt from a book about handmade films (studio that did time bandits) and i read them when i was first reading about his work and both of them give the impression (unintentional or not) that he was rude/distanced from his costars in bandits bc he didnt want to be treated "like a dwarf actor" and having learned more about his work and his life i dont think thats a fair assessment

god i'm watching this bbc program abt the history of pantomime, because david rappaport's in it aha
and like, i had seen "history of pantomime" listed under "interviews and other appearances" on his website and i thought it was an interview at first and got Super excited because there is a history of ableism in pantomime (especially for small people)
its still cool to watch his stage work though! im really glad its available to watch publicly

i love theater history honestly but one thing that becomes really apparent when reading about entertainment as an art and industry in the us is that minstrel shows have been HUGELY influential to white american theater/comedy and you cant really.. ignore that
like we've seen discussion of antiblackness and clown tropes and i dont think its accurate to say that Everything about american clowns is based in antiblackness (since theres also influence from european clowning) but it's still something that needs to be considered in modern Clown Appreciation esp for white people i think, because we're so capable of hurting ppl with those tropes

@ghost no! :o i'd love to check it out

i have 0 judgment for other people who binge or who eat a lot in general but when i binge i feel Mad at myself and like, its my fault im fat and because im fat im a disappointment to the people around me, and it also feels like everybody else Would judge me

god i wish there was more discussion of like... the historical and contemporary Othering of fat bodies (esp fat disabled bodies, fat trans bodies, fat bodies of color) and the presence of fat people as Freaks in entertainment, both historical and in current pop culture and holy SHIT i want to research and write a paper on this

the part of it that we read discussed roscoe arbuckle and his trial and as a person from a family of early film comedy fans i grew up knowing who he was (but since i was pretty young my parents didnt tell me the details about the Thing w/ him)
anyways uuhh that was Upsetting even if im glad that theres nuanced discussion of the role that fatphobia played in it